He knows me.

Here we are with less than 24 hours until Team Pink Princess becomes a reality and it is so sereal. I have been going non-stop since I was diagnosed, meeting goal after goal, milestone after milestone. Today my aunt came to my work to pick up some shirts as I walked back in my building I was reminded of her mother, my grandmother who died of cancer of the stomach lining when I was about 10 or 12. I remember grandma getting chemo and her wearing a scarf on her head. I never really knew the battle though or understood. What I do remember is my dad being out of town on a business trip and my grandma had declined or had a surgery or both. I remember going to the hospital with my other set of grandparents and seeing my dad's face after he came from her room. He had tears in his eyes and I don't remember ever seeing my dad cry before that day. My grandma died shortly after. I remember what I wore to her funeral, a turquoise dress and silver shoes. My grandma had never been to the ocean and my dad's trip had taken him to the beach. He placed a ziplock bag with sand in her casket at the funeral. That is my first memory of cancer. Cancer was the scariest word I had ever heard. Cancer equaled death. My grandpa on my moms side would die decades later of pancreatic cancer. It was also another death sentence. Everyone I had known that got cancer died, no one I knew had beat cancer, until me! I was the first one in my family to go to college. I am also the first one in my family to beat cancer! I have accomplished ALOT of firsts in my family and that is not to sing my own praises or toot my own horn. It is to say that I am thankful, I am privileged and favored by God! I love God with all my heart and long to do only His will. He has called me to share all He has done for me. He has given me a testimony to tell many women and this weekend is the begining! He has given me a beautiful, wonderful life starting with my three amazing children and awesome job, great friends and family. Thank you God for Your love and mercy endures forever! We have women arriving in less than 24 hours staggered throughout the day. I am cleaning my house, packing and praying. I know God has brought me to this and now it is finally time to tell my testimony to a few women. Many women are coming......they just don't know it yet. I have been asked to be featured on a program called Courageous Heart. It airs on a Christian television network that reaches over 70% of the world. I am so honored and blessed to be recognized with such an opportunity. This again is an example of favor, surrender, and faith. God told me that I had a testimony to tell many women BEFORE I was diagnosed. He didn't wait until I heard the word cancer to tell me. He told me months before. He knows me. He knows that cancer had taken those I love, He knew I would be scared, fearful and dismayed. He knows me. He knows I would have doubted that voice after the fact and that I needed that affirmation moments after being diagnosed too. He knows me. Thank you Lord that you know every intricate detail of my life and you love me anyway. You are my strong tower.