Go BIG or Go HOME!

     I have always believed that I live my life as an open book with nothing to hide. I still feel that way. I have made mistakes....MANY, but I feel that my honesty and candid conversation helps and heals me and others.  As I have said many times before, I hope that my life and path either deters others from making the same mistakes or let's them know that they are not alone in their thoughts or problems. This is NOT a "how to" blog people. Life is a lesson and if you keep hiding who and what you are you will never get better, stop making the same mistakes, or move on. You will continue to wander about the wilderness. I say be honest, be true in every area of your life, if you don't your only cheating yourself from a REAL life experience and a REAL chance at happiness. GO BIG or GO HOME!!!

    I have been battling spiritually in a way since coming back to KC. I am about to launch the website which I am super excited about, but daily my routine has been laxed. I like routine and am VERY goal oriented. Since survivorship has begun I have lived each day with a mission and purpose for that particular day. I am living a purpose driven life and lately have been feeling a little lost without a job, routine or service position. I enjoyed serving meals on wheels and really miss that feeling of making a difference in others lives, especially seniors. I am on a mission to get that going here also. Please pray for me in that area and all others. Your prayers have gotten me through each day since diagnosis. I love you all <3.

  I am doing well physically and have been discharged to 9 week oncology visits. WHOOOOOOOO!!!!! I am so happy. God is so good. He has taken me through so much and continues to daily. I am so blessed. I looked at some photos from last years Christmas and I began to cry. I was bald, pale and very frail. I was at the end of the HARDEST part of my treatment, my last dense dose A/C was very, very close. God was really working wonders in my life and although I hated going through it, it has made me STRONG! He has drawn me closer to Him and given my life a purpose and mission. Helping other survivors navigate through this process is so rewarding and encounters in that realm happen almost daily. PRAISE YOU JESUS for your are the author of my life!!!!! What YOU have for me is MORE than I could ever accomplish on my own. Praise God!

     All of our children are all doing well. Brett and I are preparing for Christmas here at the farm. We have around 20 chickens, two cats with a litter on the way, a dog, three kids and grandma here at the farm. We decorated the house with over 6000 lights, I trimmed the tree with all of my favorite red and gold ornaments. It is all so beautiful! We are so excited to spend our first Christmas here. We will be baking our" Happy Birthday Jesus" cake on Christmas that we will not forget the REAL reason for the season. Jesus Christ mommy's healer, redeemer, deliverer, and best friend. Yep, my best friend was born in a manger <3.

  For the Son of man is come to seek and to save that which was lost....Luke19:10