Let's just start by saying that chemo SUCKS!!!!! After my first treatment I thought that chemo would be well....... less SUCKY!!!! After last weeks infusion I had to use a wheel chair to get to the truck I was so weak and I stayed that way for a day or two, just in time to get the Neulasta shot, which also SUCKS!!! So, I had a SUCKY week. It took me almost 7 days to rebound from the last treatment, way too long for SUPER GIRL. My counts have also been way low, 1.8 after first treatment and 2.5 after second, too low to attend church, go to the grocery store or anywhere else. It SUCKS!!!!
I have been down in the dumps since the last treatment side effects and my new found agoraphobia. I have also lost ALL of my hair now and am completely, totally BALD. I think the combonation of feeling so bad this time and looking so bad has taking a mental toll on me. God has a plan and though it may not seem so, you just have to trust him. He has carried me through thus far and as long as I keep my eyes fixed on him and not myself or my circumstance he will keep me:)
Heather, you are so strong.. GOD has you under his wings..
ReplyDeleteLike you said, he has a plan for you and as long as we keep fixed on him and not ourselves or what is going on in our lives.
Trust in him with all our hearts..