Sending you all my love

      Well, this journey has taken me through three surgeries and next stop is chemotherapy, I start it in less than 24 hours. I experienced GREAT fear when the words cancer were told to me, cancer is a very scary word. Although I was scared and unsure of why this was happening to me I began to cry out to God and ask him to help me. I have to say that once I "gave it" to him I have experienced great peace over this entire situation and every aspect of my life, not to say I haven't had a few episodes of anxiety but as fast as it came it would leave as I prayed it away. We cannot predict the future or control everything in our lives, we just think we can, until something like cancer comes knocking. When it does, as it did for me, you rally. That is just human nature, what else do you do? Refuse treatment? Lay down and die? That was not an option for me, I apparently have a lot to live for:) I don't want to say that cancer has been good for me, but cancer has forced me to rely on God and to learn that through him I can do all things. I am sooooo STRONG!!!!! I have never felt so empowered in my life, I know sounds crazy right? I am strong because I am weak, does that make any sense?
       I have been blessed to have some wonderful women in my life my beautiful daughter, my mother, grandmother, my step mother and now a huge network of women that I rely on for encouragement, prayer and support. I have been adopted by a lady at my church that have been at my surgeries all my highs and lows throughout this walk, I love you Marilyn:) My pastors wife whom is also a breast cancer survivor has been nurturing me and interceding for me. I have at least 5 churches which I am on the prayer list, family, friends, strangers ALL praying for me and I love them all. I can't tell you what that means to know on days that I am down or busy to know that while I was carrying on with my day someone was ringing up heaven for me:)  Thank you all :)
     I believe that God places people in our lives in due season and through this journey I have had a wonderful christan surgeon that prayed with me before each operation , he asked and I was stunned, but so thankful:) Thank you Dr. Lehr. Every time I have needed something whether it be encouragement, peace, strength I have had the perfect person on the other end of the phone, or coming by to visit or just bumping into them at the wig shop. Something about hearing a stranger say "You are gonna be fine, God's got this", is sooooo awesome:)