Chemo.....well if this is it, which I hope it is, I have had very few side effects. Praise God!!! This is day two of the first of my chemo cycles. I will be getting 4 DD A/C and 12 Taxol treatments, for a grand total of 16. I am on my way with one super scary treatment down and 15 to go. I arrived at the hospital at 8:30, I got into the suite around 9:30 had our CBC run and vitals all taken. Everything was perfect.....time to get started. I was a little emotional and looked across the room at Brett and asked...."Are you still going to love me when I am bald?". Of course he said "yes baby" and comforted me, but what else could he say? "No....I don't think so".
I have been struggling with self image my whole life and given the bald, boob less version of myself I am "really" struggling. I AM boobs and hair, I know how shallow I am, but that is what I felt like made me sexy and secure!!!! Well, I have to say that while I have many hang ups at the moment....it won't be like this for long, just like the song says. I am much more than boobs and hair, although I am on a desperate rescue mission to retrieve them, I will be okay until I do God willing:)
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