He is making ALL things NEW:)

       Can I just say there is NO greater feeling in the world than feeling healthy, other than being healthy!!!! I had never felt sick before my diagnosis and even with all the surgeries had not been ill, despite having breast cancer. Who knew something that was trying to kill you could be so sneaky and painless? Well,  I had a week off of chemo this week and my body, mind and spirit needed it BAD!!!! I, once again, had a hard time rebounding from the last A/C treatment two and a half weeks ago, as the side effects were terrible and the cumulative fatigue was worse. I developed mouth sores that were on each underside of my tongue, I could not eat anything and barely drank for 5 days, nothing like the chemo diet to make you lose 13 lbs in a month. I am at a good weight for me but chemo is not the time to diet. I can say that the mouth sores have been the most excruciating part of this process, losing the ability to talk, eat or drink was awful, some around here may have enjoyed a little peace and quiet, LOL!!!!
     I am on the mend and am feeling great. PRAISE GOD!!!!  The news of Elizabeth Edwards was hard for me to watch last night and I began to cry when I thought of her children and how they will face the world without their mother, it does scare me. I know that God has a plan for my life and that I will come through this victorious but there are days and moments that doubts creep in and for that I feel ashamed. I feel like I am not trusting God or I am doubting his promises. I don't know if that is natural or I am just trying to be super human or super christian but I do know that it goes away as fast as I pray or read his word. This is a journey with not many highs and LOTS of lows. I have experienced so many I can hardly count, but one thing has stayed true throughout it all....God. He is my ALL, my EVERYTHING, without him I can do nothing. I have given my life to him, CANCER and ALL and he is making all things NEW in me. I can see things in my life that were so important becoming so much less significant and so many things that I have taken for granted becoming so monumental.
     I challenge you today to ask God to show you, as he is me, the things that are important and the things that are not so important that we spend so much of our time focusing on. He will reveal these things to you and when he does it makes things so much more clear and gives one a NEW lease on life, as it has for me:)